Better yet, Happy Non Anniversary. If we were still together I know exactly how this day would go. You have built me up to believe you were actually going to take the time and effort to go out of your way to do something nice for me. Only to find out it was all a lie. Chances are you would have told me that you spent all your money partying with your friends and couldn’t afford even as much as a card. The night would end up with me tears begging for you try and understand how I was feeling, only to have you get even more angry with every hurtful tear you caused to trickle down my cheeks. You would wait until I was asking for you to stop and to just be nice to for a change to tell me it was my entire fault and that I brought it all on myself. That if I didn’t stop that things are going to get ugly. You would accuse me of being the one keeping it going until I was in hysterics begging for you to stop. I would then have to get naked for you to stop yelling at me. Then be forced to do things that weren’t right for how much pain I was feeling. Those things are to be reserved only for acts of love and not fear!
By the off chance that you did in fact buy me a gift, it would be something you wanted for yourself. The gift wouldn’t have been for me at all, or even having me in mind, yet you would tell me it is. Like strobe light clock you bought for me and got mad when I told you it would cause for me to have a seizure. You told me that you would be tickled pink if someone bought you a gift like that. You accused me of being ungrateful, shellfish and that I wasn’t thinking of your “feelings.” You were so made that I refused to put my health and my life before your happiness! Oh the horror, it was such an injustice to you for me to do that!
The last gift you gave me was a black eye on the last anniversary we actually spent together. You punished me for not understanding your logic that you had done something nice for someone else, yet didn’t care enough to make an effort for me! After all, you did force me to drive you to the store not even a week before our anniversary for you to buy things so you could make sure that one of your friends as you put it “Have their special day”. I thought you could have at least showered and gotten dressed! How wrong of me to think that I deserved to ever have a special day for me!
So my dear Geoff here are the very last gifts, I will ever give to you! Even though I know you will never see this blog, I am still telling you what my gifts to you are. I truly hope you love them, because they are the best gift you will ever receive in your life! You just can’t get any better than this! These gifts I give to you are based on your gift giving style. So they are the perfect gifts for you! Oh but wait, I have given two precious gifts before, but you deny these blessed gift ever existed! You say that these gracious gifts are nothing but a figment of an imagination in my crazy mind! That is so sad! You would always go on and on about wrong it is for other’s to do the very same thing you did. You expressed so much pain and anger for having it done to you, but you go and do exactly what caused you so much pain and anguish as child! So hypocritical of you! Yet I should have known, after all you always said one thing, but actions proved another. Well these last gifts, you can’t deny.
For my first gift to you is that for this day only I dedicate my blog to you. Perfect gift I know. Everything about this blog just screams who you really are and how much I know the real you! This blog has done so many wonderful things for me I that can’t even begin to count them!
Now my last gift is the best one yet. You will never receive a gift any better than this one. You actually made history! Really I mean it and it was little ole me who made it happen for you. Well with your help of course, because without you being who you really are, I wouldn’t have been able to give you this gift! On June 8, 2012, you became the first person in our state to be listed on the “National Domestic Violence Registry”. I was pounding my brain on what to give to you and when I saw that the website the day before after someone one had posted it in their facebook status, I knew I just had to get it for you! When I had submitted your information, I didn’t know that you were going to go down in history until after I was notified that my submission was accepted and I saw I for myself! OH MY GOD, I am in tears right now for how happy I am that because of your choice of action I was able to give you this gift.
Yes…yes, I know you don’t have to tell me that these gifts are truly for me and my happiness. You have to remember it is based on your gift giving style. Like I said I know you will never see this blog or ever know that you have made history. You don’t have easy access to the internet, so how could you. It’s a shame really. These are the best gifts, I have given you that can’t be denied and you will never know. Yet, by the off chance that you do, you have to pat me on the back for my creativity!
Furthermore that by some majorly off the wall chance you see these very thoughtful and meaningful gifts that are just perfect for you. I hope you remember the very same words you would say to me each and every time I tried to talk to you about my hurt feelings, the type of day I had or horrific pain one feels when suffering from the loss of a loved one. “Stop your bitching because there are people who are far worse off than you.” “Stop your crying because you should feel lucky that you have a roof over year head.” “You should be sorry for the people who died from buildings falling on them.” “You are being selfish, just think of the starving children in Africa!” “You have nothing to be upset about; the people who lost their homes in the hurricane have more to be upset about then you.” “You are overacting! Just look at the father who lost his kids when his wife drowned them. You don’t see him carrying on about it.” ”People die every day, it is what it is, there is nothing you can do, so shut up about it.”
I couldn’t be more proud of myself; these gifts sure do send a message of my true feelings for you. It is shocking to me that you didn’t read the signs. I mean really if I wanted you in my life, would I have called the police on you? Even after calling the corporate office to complain of your actions, you still didn’t get it! You cornered my daughter and conned her into giving you new cell phone number. Then you tried to use her as pawn to gain entry back into my life. You can deny it all you want, but I have it recorded. So I reported you yet again, still your light bulb just in not coming on!
You want for me to put the past behind me and move forward! You said that you could fix the past. Really…you expect for me to believe that? In order to fix anything you would have to acknowledge all the wrong you have done. That will never happen because in your mind you have done nothing wrong. You would have to feel remorse and anguish for all that I have lost. Some of which I will forever miss, hold dear to my heart for all eternity and don’t go a day without thinking out. That would be a cold day in hell because to you I haven’t lost anything worth losing.
The last time we spoke I said to you: “I fucking pray for your death every day! I can’t stand you! I fucking hate your murdering woman beating raping ass!” That was putting it the nicest way possible. You are nothing but a thing of the past. Been there, done it and not doing it again! I glad it is over and grateful you are out of my life.
By the off chance that you did in fact buy me a gift, it would be something you wanted for yourself. The gift wouldn’t have been for me at all, or even having me in mind, yet you would tell me it is. Like strobe light clock you bought for me and got mad when I told you it would cause for me to have a seizure. You told me that you would be tickled pink if someone bought you a gift like that. You accused me of being ungrateful, shellfish and that I wasn’t thinking of your “feelings.” You were so made that I refused to put my health and my life before your happiness! Oh the horror, it was such an injustice to you for me to do that!
The last gift you gave me was a black eye on the last anniversary we actually spent together. You punished me for not understanding your logic that you had done something nice for someone else, yet didn’t care enough to make an effort for me! After all, you did force me to drive you to the store not even a week before our anniversary for you to buy things so you could make sure that one of your friends as you put it “Have their special day”. I thought you could have at least showered and gotten dressed! How wrong of me to think that I deserved to ever have a special day for me!
So my dear Geoff here are the very last gifts, I will ever give to you! Even though I know you will never see this blog, I am still telling you what my gifts to you are. I truly hope you love them, because they are the best gift you will ever receive in your life! You just can’t get any better than this! These gifts I give to you are based on your gift giving style. So they are the perfect gifts for you! Oh but wait, I have given two precious gifts before, but you deny these blessed gift ever existed! You say that these gracious gifts are nothing but a figment of an imagination in my crazy mind! That is so sad! You would always go on and on about wrong it is for other’s to do the very same thing you did. You expressed so much pain and anger for having it done to you, but you go and do exactly what caused you so much pain and anguish as child! So hypocritical of you! Yet I should have known, after all you always said one thing, but actions proved another. Well these last gifts, you can’t deny.
For my first gift to you is that for this day only I dedicate my blog to you. Perfect gift I know. Everything about this blog just screams who you really are and how much I know the real you! This blog has done so many wonderful things for me I that can’t even begin to count them!
Now my last gift is the best one yet. You will never receive a gift any better than this one. You actually made history! Really I mean it and it was little ole me who made it happen for you. Well with your help of course, because without you being who you really are, I wouldn’t have been able to give you this gift! On June 8, 2012, you became the first person in our state to be listed on the “National Domestic Violence Registry”. I was pounding my brain on what to give to you and when I saw that the website the day before after someone one had posted it in their facebook status, I knew I just had to get it for you! When I had submitted your information, I didn’t know that you were going to go down in history until after I was notified that my submission was accepted and I saw I for myself! OH MY GOD, I am in tears right now for how happy I am that because of your choice of action I was able to give you this gift.
Yes…yes, I know you don’t have to tell me that these gifts are truly for me and my happiness. You have to remember it is based on your gift giving style. Like I said I know you will never see this blog or ever know that you have made history. You don’t have easy access to the internet, so how could you. It’s a shame really. These are the best gifts, I have given you that can’t be denied and you will never know. Yet, by the off chance that you do, you have to pat me on the back for my creativity!
Furthermore that by some majorly off the wall chance you see these very thoughtful and meaningful gifts that are just perfect for you. I hope you remember the very same words you would say to me each and every time I tried to talk to you about my hurt feelings, the type of day I had or horrific pain one feels when suffering from the loss of a loved one. “Stop your bitching because there are people who are far worse off than you.” “Stop your crying because you should feel lucky that you have a roof over year head.” “You should be sorry for the people who died from buildings falling on them.” “You are being selfish, just think of the starving children in Africa!” “You have nothing to be upset about; the people who lost their homes in the hurricane have more to be upset about then you.” “You are overacting! Just look at the father who lost his kids when his wife drowned them. You don’t see him carrying on about it.” ”People die every day, it is what it is, there is nothing you can do, so shut up about it.”
I couldn’t be more proud of myself; these gifts sure do send a message of my true feelings for you. It is shocking to me that you didn’t read the signs. I mean really if I wanted you in my life, would I have called the police on you? Even after calling the corporate office to complain of your actions, you still didn’t get it! You cornered my daughter and conned her into giving you new cell phone number. Then you tried to use her as pawn to gain entry back into my life. You can deny it all you want, but I have it recorded. So I reported you yet again, still your light bulb just in not coming on!
You want for me to put the past behind me and move forward! You said that you could fix the past. Really…you expect for me to believe that? In order to fix anything you would have to acknowledge all the wrong you have done. That will never happen because in your mind you have done nothing wrong. You would have to feel remorse and anguish for all that I have lost. Some of which I will forever miss, hold dear to my heart for all eternity and don’t go a day without thinking out. That would be a cold day in hell because to you I haven’t lost anything worth losing.
The last time we spoke I said to you: “I fucking pray for your death every day! I can’t stand you! I fucking hate your murdering woman beating raping ass!” That was putting it the nicest way possible. You are nothing but a thing of the past. Been there, done it and not doing it again! I glad it is over and grateful you are out of my life.
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